While reading The Catcher in the Rye, I was not impressed by Holden’s impulsive violent response to Stradlater’s date with Jane. Holden claims that he doesn’t remember the events that occurred after he decided to fight Stradlater. He explains, “This next part I don’t remember so hot. All I know is I got up from the bed, […] and then I tried to sock him, with all my might, right smack in the toothbrush, so it would split his goddam throat open.” (pg. 43). This seemingly small and unimportant argument pushed Holden over the edge and caused him to break down, which leads me to believe that Holden has a tendency to release his pent-up emotions in a blind rage. Holden’s agitation about Stradlater and Jane highlights his innocence and sensitivity about sexual matters and relationships. While fighting, Holden tells Stradlater that “he didn’t even care if a girl kept all her kings in the back row or not, and the reason he didn’t care was because he was a goddam stupid moron.” (pg. 44). Stradlater’s date with Jane doesn’t just make Holden jealous; it frustrates him to think of a girl he knows well being intimate with a boy she doesn’t know well. I infer from this scene that Holden wants adult experiences; however, he fears becoming disingenuous, or ‘phony’, and becoming less emotionally invested in said experiences as he matures. In this situation, Holden is experiencing an external conflict with Stradlater because they do not share the same values and beliefs in regards to sexual relationships. That said, the reasons that their disagreement escalated into a physical fight are the many internal conflicts that Holden is facing, such as the grief he is feeling after his brother passed away and his overall discontent with his life. These internal struggles make the development of Holden’s character very believable, and they somewhat justify his reckless response to his feelings of jealousy. Although believable, I would have preferred it if Holden was able to release his emotions in a less harmful and more effective way, such as talking to a friend or family member. Such a controlled response would be unrealistic due to Holden’s personality and the societal norms of the time. Holden is not a character to be emulated because he is dealing with emotional trauma and dissatisfaction with his life, which causes him to lash out. Despite this, I have found some personal connections to Holden’s internal conflicts. Holden is a naïve teenager, often brooding, sarcastic, and cynical about life in general. My parents have always deemed me an ‘old soul’ because of my own tendencies to view the world with skepticism. Another similarity lies in the way Holden impulsively deals with his anger, when upset I tend to be reactive; however, I tend to lash out verbally while Holden tends to physically strike out.